Wednesday, October 26, 2005

undiscovered


I watched a movie entitled Undiscovered. The setting is love at first sight. (Is this for real??) The movie is quite not satisfying and just like any other Pinoy film. Hehehe...

I have apprehension and doubt that this may not work out. If only she knew... I'm coward and don't have the courage to confide what I feel. This may create havoc and may destroy everything, which I don't want to happen. My feelings for SOMEONE should be remained undiscovered, for now...

Sunday, October 23, 2005

there she goes

We had a sort of reunion of my high school friends. I've seen her again, and she looks very different. She gained weight! And it looks nice . I admit she's prettier now than before..

As we go along with the conversation, I can't believe that she actually feels what i felt! All she did was to say something and all i have done was to nod for confirmation. There's a sense of connection which I can't explain, nor my science can expound. It just happened.

The reason why she called, she said, " I feel something ain't right... I was dreaming of you... " And she was right. I'm in my darkest moments these past days.

Thursday, October 20, 2005

vulnerable

I just can’t imagine, my high school so-called “puppy love”, is calling me over my cellphone tonight! It’s unusual, not ordinary. I don’t know why, but she said, got nothing to do, just been bored. Yeah, we had good times back then, but it’s over. I don’t want to play around. And it’s so stupid of me as of the moment… I’m vulnerable. I’m confused…

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

something's UP!

After a great birthday bash for jonalee last night, everyone is lazy of waking up and getting ready for school. A good news set my fone on message alert, "Sem break na ta classmate. No class on FCM". But got so many paper works to finish on...

On the other side of the book, I feel something different. Something's sparking up. I don't know. But it's flourishing! She's not my ideal, but I like her... ;-)

Monday, October 17, 2005

i'm back

I'm back to my self. Reviving back my self-worth. As what aimz has just forwarded through my fone, " When people walk away from you, let them go... Your destiny is never tied to anybody who leaves you. And it doesn't mean that they are bad persons. It just means that their part in the story is over..."

Sunday, October 16, 2005

for myself...

Stupidity is over!

There's no great feeling compared on giving your self high value and great regards than anything nor anyone here in this world. It's priceless!

Basking on to whatever the future may bring... Be carefree... Worry-free...

Life is a risk. Time to give myself a break. Who knows, this might be my last entry on Scrapbook. ;-)

Saturday, October 15, 2005

uncertain

I am behaving awkwardly!
I'm trying to act, as if everything's fine
Trying to ride on the flow...
But it wasn't me

Friday, October 14, 2005

anxious


I’m anxious of starting up a conversation. I still feel a bit distant from the rest. I hope that they would understand me. I keep on believing…

Thursday, October 13, 2005

avoidant

My personality disorder is again keeping me away from my friends. Avoidant, as I am, halts me from taking steps on initiating conversation. I am becoming paranoid. I hope you don't get tired of me guys... Please bear with me.

PLEASE....

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

suya!

SUYA GID KO YA !!!

I really hate somebody subjugating my excitement! It draws my energy down to zero. It makes me feel futile and pointless. If you are not interested, or uneasy or for whatever reasons you have - better go home and find yourself (as what you always did)! F**K! #@*!

I need not spend my time, sweat and saliva dealing with effortless persons. I still hold on for the sake of my groupmates. Please stop provoking my temper. I don't want to hate somebody nor offend anybody. Grudge is out of my vocabulary.

Be sensitive ... That's all I ask for ...

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

good job

Good history and presentation! Wow that's overwhelming. A first ever neonate case and yet we did it quite well. Thanks to my groupmates: chei-pie, aimz, mark, mik2x, kj. Also to melvin for the revision of our HPI and giving us an idea on how to make diagnosis.

Pedia is over and CPC comes again with a difficult case. Cracking heads on brainstorming. A hectic week awaits us all. Final judgment on friday. Whew...

Monday, October 03, 2005

awkward

Coming home at 2am! Again because of pedia case. I fell awkward today. Maybe because, I really don't have any interest in pedia. I'm so reluctant on giving suggestions and comments on the case, in which not a typical me. It's as if I'm so dumb and nonsense, if I try uttering my words. Weird. This is a hectic day!

Sunday, October 02, 2005

;-)

I've been so noisy this day. I made comments a lot! Sorry pie... Hehehe. We've been so overwhelm of the asphyxia case we had in Pedia, that I noticed KJ freeing her wacky side. She's nice and fun to be with... Indeed we can't just judge a book by its cover. Instead, read it and try learning its content.

"The Brothers Grimm" ended my day.

Saturday, October 01, 2005

a busy day

It's been a busy day today. The sun shines with zest and hope for every discouraging things that happened in my life. Maturity has, indeed, help me face everyday challenges. Wisdom has lead me find hapiness. God has lead me back to tracks! God completes my inner core. And my friends???? Hah.. they wrap my entirety. Thank you guid, mga abyan..